WORK | Starting Over a Failed Business




Starting over is something that I dread. It means I have failed, and therefore I need to pick up the pieces and move forward. It is a heart wrenching process, yet vital for you to continue to grow and make better choices. 

I always tell my students to embrace failures. After all, failures play a significant role in learning what strategies worked, what didn't, and where did you go wrong. But I don't deny the mental exhaustion you might develop from dealing with failed projects, the depression that can lock you up in the dark place for what you feel a lifetime, especially when it is a start-up business. You were broke, you invested everything you had, yet it fell short. What would you do? You learn from it.

What I learned running Portly Paperie as a proper start-up business for a year and a half was valuable to me, as a small business owner who were just starting out and testing the depth of the water (note: it was deep). Although I failed maintaining and scaling the business to something substantial, I believe that it is good that it fell short while it was still young, so the losses weren't that painful and I am able to dissect our strategies and pinpoint how I can make it better. There are many websites and business coaches who offer advice on starting over, but if you are a small business owner and you want to try again, I have a couple things I think will be beneficial for you. Here are the things I would do better when I'm starting over my business:

1. The Water is Deep. Do Your Research.

This is extremely important. Know your market. There is no value when you're creating a great product, but no one wants to buy it. If you take a look at Portly Paperie Facebook page, you might see we received reviews praising our product for being high quality and different from generic brands. However, our flagship product was too niche to appeal to the mass market, therefore hindering us to scale the business.
It is okay if you are creating a product specifically to a niche market and know for a fact that your market needs your product. However, in our case, we wanted to create a luxurious product for the middle income group, and that is where we fell short. Middle income groups don't need a luxurious planner, they get these from their workplace. Higher income groups don't need our planner, they need high-end luxury brands'. Plus, Malaysians don't use comprehensive planners, they love flexibility. We should have researched this, and made our product accessible to the mass market. 

2. Start Where You Are with What You Have.

Speaking about being accessible, our major downfall is coming up with luxury product when we didn't have enough capital to scale said product. We spent 90% of our investment on production, and every business owners know this is a wrong practice. We didn't have enough to market our product to the right niche, and we struggled to keep the balances afloat. Our problem was fundamentally, we were perfectionists. We wanted the product to be perfect, so we invested every penny creating it as such. It is laughable now to think that no product is perfect. What we should have done was to create something within the budget that we had, and improve on the flagship product as our business grow.

3. Plan for The Whole Year. And the Year After.

The irony of this statement is we actually sold planners. But we failed to plan thoroughly. As a small business, you always fell into the trap of "going with the flow" and "seeing how it goes". But the truth is, every small businesses become successful from careful planning and knowing the next steps, and knowing how to fall back when the steps are not working. Having a full year strategy carefully planned out will make your team work easier, more efficient, and stress free. Do not decide something at the very last minute. Know what's ahead of you, and plan.

4. You Can't Do It Alone.

When I was running this business, most of the times I wanted to do things myself. I did not delegate because I was worried that my business partners are too busy since they were running their own businesses as well. I also suffered from extreme self doubt that most of the times I could not make decisions and rely to my partners to support my suggestions. This is where I was wrong, and I dare say my biggest mistake. Every business is important and deserves to be treated as such. If your partners cannot commit, that means they don't value the business as you do, and you need to address the issue quickly. Delegation is key. You have a team for a reason, and you need to grow as a team. If you are the leader of your business, take charge, make decisions, and delegate.

5. Forget the Self Doubt.

When you are running a business, you have a lot of ideas and strategies on how you can grow and things you can do. But sometimes, you'd doubt yourself and you'd rather bury your ideas than proposing to your team. Don't be paralyzed by anxiety. It is important to vocalize your ideas. Your team will tell you if your ideas are not going to work, and even better, they can come up with ways to make your ideas better. Even if things are not going to go your way, you have offered your perspective, and your team will contribute with theirs. Remember, if you don't act on your ideas, your ideas will die with you.

6. Be Yourself.

The key of successful business is authenticity. People love brands that stick true to their identity and values. Having an identity is not only important to your business, but to you as well. Your business is an extension of your own identity. So why choose others? For example, let's look at the movies. The reason people love Elle Woods from Legally Blonde is because she is true to herself, despite being ridiculed and pressured to conform. As for us, we tried our best to come up with an identity that has nothing to do with our own. We wanted to be high-end, but none of us are truly high-end. My team was a quirky, intelligent, and bright. And we should have projected that in our brand. 

I hope these insights help you if you are going through tough time starting a business, and wanting to try again. Remember, everything in life is dynamic, nothing stays constant. It is best to learn from things that happened, and move forward.

Good luck!


LIFE | Bad Mom




Yesterday was tough.

My baby and I spent the whole day at the hospital for me to do some tests. We left the hospital at 5.30pm, had a pit stop at a mall at 7pm for diaper change and nursing, after being stuck in a standstill traffic for two hours, left at 9pm and was stuck for another hour,  and finally arrived home at 11pm. 

By the second standstill traffic, my baby was exhausted. He cried for the whole hour, wailing. The rain was heavy, and so was my tears. I cried, because I felt helpless. Because I couldn't park my car in the emergency lane to soothe my 5 months old. Because he was in his car seat at the back, and there was nothing I can do. At that moment, I was thinking: I am a bad mom.

I bring my son everywhere. Some people call me selfish for doing so. Sometimes I brought him along to meetings, strapped him in a baby carrier so he is close to me all the time. Sometimes to the printing factory, sometimes to hospital visits. One time I was such in a rush, I accidentally bumped his head. Sometimes I beat myself up for every little things. Such as for refusing to supply my baby with formula despite me struggling to keep my breast milk supply; Just enough for him to latch the whole day, but not enough to be pumped and kept for when I'm working. I beat myself up when I'm working too much, when I'm spending too much time with him and not working, when I yelled at 5am because I haven't slept two days in a row and he refused to sleep, when I sleep with him and my house is in a mess. And especially, when I worked so hard, but my business failed.

I cried for days, because I felt I have failed my son. Because I felt he deserves a better mom, who is excited about baking sweet breads and have a successful business running. I felt I am not good enough, and I'm pretty sure his future will mess up if I continue being his mother (not that I can quit this role, but bear with me). In a moment of feeling overwhelmed, I turned to a Facebook group. A bunch of people judged, another bunched noticed something was off. But one person of an angel wrote something and it changed everything:

"Reading between the lines, I'm sure you are doing your best despite the way you illustrated that your priorities are out of whack. I'm going to stretch a limb here and say you are not a bad mom."

And that does it for me. 

We are doing our best every day, no matter how the circumstances make us feel like it is not good enough. We leave them with babysitter and choose to work because we want a better life for our children. We become a stay-at-home mom and put our ambitions on hold because we want our children to feel secure having us with them. We lose sleep over breastfeeding and pumping milk because it provides optimum nutrients for our children. We choose to feed formula, because we can't produce enough breast milk, and the baby needs to be fed. Our house is in a mess, because we want to spend more time with them. We don't get to spend enough time with them because we need to make sure the house is clean for them. We feed them frozen nuggets. We bump their heads once. We use hand-me-downs clothes a bit too much. And all these are okay.

A lot of mothers, like I am, put pressure upon ourselves. We constantly worry, and feel like we could do more, beat ourselves up for mistakes or circumstances that is beyond our control. But it is important that we remind ourselves, and other moms, that we are doing our best. That our not-good-enough is enough for our children. That children, essentially, do not need a super mom. They just need security, encouragement and a whole lot of love from you. They need you.

And you are good enough.


DIY | Baby Sensory Hoop!


Hi friends,

I've been on hiatus for quite some time because *surprise surprise*, I had given a birth to a baby boy last November! It has been an exhilarating yet super exhausting ride. Nobody gave me a heads up how life can turn around completely after baby. But that will be discussed in another post!

My son is turning 4 months old (so fast!), and this is a crucial time for him to expand his motor, language and cognitive development. One of the most effective ways to do this is by offering the baby sensory toys! There are thousands of these toys in the market you can buy (my favorite is Lamaze brand. They are just fab!), but you can also make some of these toys for cheap, using things you already have in the house, or buying the supplies for not more than RM50. 

I looked in Pinterest and fell in love with the simplicity and the ingeniousness of Sensory Hoops. They are really simple to put together and not expensive at all. Especially if you take time scouring your basement for things you hoarded. They are finally useful! (I'm kidding. Please stop hoarding.) Here's how I made mine:



The main thing you need for this project is some kind of hoop. You can use hula hoop but I had this random IKEA BRYNE hoop I had since 2010 so I decided to utilize it. After getting your hoop, this is where the fun begins! Gather items with different textures so your baby can discover variety of senses when he/she touches them. At 4 to 6 months old, your baby is intrigued by textures, so march to MR. DIY and load up your items! Here are some things I include in my hoop:

1. Glitter washi tape to catch his eyes and provide gritty texture.
2. Shaggy microfiber towel with Monkey plush at the top.
3. Multi color key covers
4. Ribbons in different colors and textures.
5. Fur key chain
6. Suede tassels
7. Shoelaces (I braided one to create different texture)
8. Textured luggage tag
9. Mirror key chain

**I did not include some of the items in the picture after considering choking hazard.

Attaching using zip ties, then cut the tail off.
Remove tiny compartments to avoid choking hazard

Add bright, eye-catching colors!
Tie ribbons with different textures
More textures

MORE textures

Textures with fun twist

Plan your layout on the hoop, which item goes where, and have fun! I attach some of the items using zip ties and the rest are tied. SO EASY. And if you must know, I bought all my items except for the hoop at MR.DIY, and they rang up less than RM 30! Not only this toy is super cheap, it also benefits your child greatly. So I hope you will give it a go!

My son HATES tummy time. This toy encourages him to enjoy some moments being on his tummy.


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 Hope you'll give this simple project a try and share with us your very own sensory hoop!



LIFE | What's in My Hospital Bag?



Hi guys,

First of all, I apologize for having been missing for quite some time. Third trimester is zooming fast and I feel like I have not enough time to nest properly! (Because I spend a bulk of my time napping. Ha!). It's quite challenging for a first time mother like me, constantly researching what I need to prepare for delivery, and to discard what I don't need. Because let's face it, first child, you want EVERYTHING.

With a couple more weeks left to my due date, it is the best time for me to pack all the things I need for delivery. I try to be as minimalist and practical as I can, so let's jump right into it:

THE BAG

The bag I'm using is from a shop called G.Davin, bought in 2014 to be used as my office bag. It's cute, has tons of compartments and made from nylon so it's easy to clean. When I was using it as my portable office bag, I could fit all the supplies I need and it was really sturdy. So, I thought of converting it to my hospital/diaper bag.

BABY'S STUFF


All the baby clothing are packed in this little organizing tote so they are separated from my clothes and it'll be easy to access. When needed, my husband and I can just lift this little savvy tote out from the bag and pull what we need.


Since baby's clothes are so tiny and light, they fit in the tote nicely. However, I can't fit his swaddle blanket and towel since they are too large, but overall I think this tote will make things much easier.

I tried to simplify what I need to bring to the hospital because I'm planning to have a normal delivery and hopefully will be discharged from the hospital as soon as possible. Also, because my bag is not essentially large. So these are the baby things I decided to pack:

1. Two muslin napkins - I pack these simple napkins to be used when burping the baby or to wipe him/her after feeding. These are also nifty if you want to cover yourself up during feeding. I bought these in a pack of 10 napkins at AEON for about RM29.90.

2. Two muslin swaddle blanket - I also packed two large swaddle blankets for the baby so he/she will be all cosy and feel like he/she is still in the womb. Muslin is a good choice for Malaysian weather I think because it is more breathable and not too warm. I really like the fabric of both swaddle blankets, they are so soft! They are from Aden & Anais.


3. Towel - If you are not sure your hospital is going to provide towels for you and your baby, it's good to pack your own. Initially I wanted an adorable hooded baby towel in neutral colour, but couldn't find the one I really like. So I decided to just buy a simple, no-fuss, fluffy towel for the baby.

4. Two piece baby outfits + socks - I plan to deliver at a government hospital and was advised to bring two piece button up baby outfits by the nurses. This is just to make their job handling your baby easier, especially because babies tend to poop a lot and it is more convenient to remove the button up shirt and pants rather than slipping pooped on onesies off your baby! These are pretty cheap to buy and I got mine at RM19.90 per outfit. I also fold these outfits together with matching socks so we don't have to rummage through our bag just to keep those little feet warm.


5. Sleepsuits - It is also good to pack button up sleepsuits, and I packed two sets. They are thicker than the previous outfits and they are perfect for nighttime. I love these because they come with convenient integrated socks and mittens, so you can turn the cuff over and the baby's hands and feet are covered. Really great!


6. Going Home Outfit  - Quite obviously I want my baby to look all dressed up and adorable to welcome him/her home. And I think this lightweight, 100% cotton, sailor inspired outfit is perfect. Although I am pretty sure the baby will be swaddled, but it is always nice to have him/her dressed well as we welcome him/her home.


7. Two Baby belly binders (Barut) - This is more of South East Asians practice I think, to wrap the baby tummy with barut. This practice is to minimise gas and colic in newborn babies. The ones I pack are modern versions with velcro closures, however there are traditional ones with string closure which I will be using for my baby during confinement because it is more secure and adjustable to size.


8. Two Hats - More than just to keep your baby's head warm, they also increase your baby's level of cuteness by 1000.


9. Mittens - I pack two little mittens as the two piece outfits do not come with integrated socks and mittens. I wish they do!

10. Baby wipes -I decided to bring a small pack of 30 pieces baby wipes that fits perfectly in my bag's side pocket. Having wipes is not only making cleaning baby's waste easier, but you can also use it to refresh your face and wiping spills.


11. Newborn milk bottle - In the other pocket, I packed this little bottle from Tommee Tippee just in case we need it. Hopefully I am able to breasfeed my baby without any problem, but if that is not the case, we are ready with another means to feed him/her. Even though I am a supporter of breastfeeding, I am also a believer of "Fed is Best". I'm sure mothers everywhere will do their best to make sure their baby is fed well and grow healthy. Sticking true to this belief, I decided to be prepared for both breastfeeding and bottle feeding.


12. Car seat/ Baby carrier - This obviously doesn't fit in my bag, but it's good to get your baby's car seat strapped and ready in your car. This will save time when you are rushing out of the door!


MUMMY'S STUFF

When packing for hospital bag, I realized I focused quite a lot to my baby's stuff. Maybe I got a little too excited to meet this new person! However, you need to keep in mind that your well being is as important, especially when going through a major milestone such as childbirth. Here are the things I pack for myself:

1. Pregnancy medical record (the important Pink Book!) - This is the most important thing to bring to your chosen delivery institution. Depending to your country, you will have some sort of records to be presented during antenatal check-ups. In Malaysia, we have this little pink book that is given to all expecting mothers when we register at the public clinic. I carry this book all the time in my handbag so I know it will always be with me even if I have sudden labour or emergency.


2.  Two sets of pyjamas/lounge wear/ comfy clothes - My hospital will provide their gowns to wear, and it's a requirement to wear their gowns. But I pack two lounge wears in breathable cotton jersey material for going home outfit and spare. You want to make sure the elastic of the pants are stretchable and loose enough not to compress your tummy, especially if you are having c-section surgery.



3. Cotton robe - The hospital or your birthing center might be too cold, so I decided to pack a lightweight robe for extra warmth. This cute navy cotton robe with hot pink piping is from Cotton On.


4. Easy instant hijab - I'm a practicing Muslim so I need to wear my hijab after being discharged by the hospital. However, I don't want to fuss around with pins and wrapping long scarves. So, this lightweight stretchable, no-wrinkle instant hijab is perfect for me as I only need to pull it over my head and it'll be done. I also love that it comes with soft headpiece (or as Malaysians call it, awning!) so I don't have to deal with smooshed hijab.If you're wondering how this hijab will look like worn, here is a sample.


5. Nursing Bra - I packed a lightweight, soft, non padded bra with no underwire. It's not essentially an actual nursing bra, but it will get the job done. 


6. Underwear - At first I was thinking to buy disposable underwear, but speaking from experience, I don't think it will be comfortable . These ones might look cute, but they are so cheap (RM10 at Mydin) so I don't mind having them ruined (hopefully not ruined though..)



I also been thinking to buy pull-up adult diapers in place of underwear and pads to be worn a couple of days after giving birth. I've been researching my Pinterest and Youtube and saw a number of people vouching for the convenience of adult diapers, and I am really interested. Let me know if I should get a pack!
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7. Pads - Usually your birthing centers and hospital will provide maternity pads, but I personally not a fan. They are extra thick, bulky, don't sit right, and don't absorb that well. These are a pack of 24 super absorbent overnight pads that you can find in any pharmacy and in any brands. For me, these are much more comfortable than maternity pads, so I really recommend you to bring these.


8. Socks - The hospital will be COLD at night! I'll bring three socks in different length and thickness so I can choose one that is the most comfy to be worn after delivery. Socks will let you sleep better, keeping you warm and cosy. The far right one is in watermelon print, isn't it adorable?


9. Flip Flops - I am not a fan of slippers. They can get too warm for my liking, especially in Malaysia weather. I bought these for RM4 at Tesco to be worn around the ward and to the bathroom.


10. Towel - My hospital doesn't provide towels, so I will bring one for myself and one for baby. If you are unsure whether your birthing center will provide one, it is best to check with them so you can pack accordingly. But I don't mind bringing my own because hospital towels tend to be thin and scratchy. A little bit of fluffy warmth is enough to elevate my mood after delivery.


11. Toiletries - As not to over pack, I only bring my absolute essentials, and pack them in travel size. Apart from toothbrush and items for oral hygiene, I also bring a bottle of shower gel, deodorant, rose water in spritz bottle, a roll-on perfume, Nivea creme to be used both on my face and body (I love multitasking items!), lip balm in that cute cupcake container, and my oil for my hair, face and body.
I don't bring make up because I generally don't wear make up daily, so I don't think it's a necessity for me. But if it is to you, try to stick to simple makeup items that won't take too much of your time and energy.



I kept my toiletries in this little pouch I got from Daiso, and attached a coin purse to keep extra hair ties.


12. Sleeping Mask - Here's a bit of a funny story. Last Thursday I was sent to the Emergency and was warded for the night because my doctor thought my water was leaking. It was around 9 PM and I was in the middle of writing this post! But it's a good thing I was detained in the ward for a night because I discovered that the maternity ward in my hospital won't turn off the light all night! I have no idea the reason behind it, and I am not complaining but it definitely made me restless because I needed darkness to fall asleep. Haha! So if you are like me and prefer the dark side, it is good to pack a sleeping mask, which I will buy as soon as possible.

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So these are all the things I pack for my hospital bag + the baby car seat of course. Let me know if there are things that I should bring and if I missed anything important. As a first time mom, I'm a bit nervous!

Have a great week!


ORGANIZE | Get a Clean House Without Being Overwhelmed

Cleaning is tedious.

It takes time, a lot of effort and generally tire you out. Sometimes I get overwhelmed with the amount of time taken to ensure my home is an orderly haven. And when I got overwhelmed, my house honestly will be left looking like a pigsty (true story).

First of all, we are all busy. As I am grinding everyday for my start-up businesses, I'll be completely exhausted by the end of the day and would rather sleep than to spend any energy left cleaning. And some of us rather spend quality time with our family than spending a good three to five hours doing chores.

Actual photo of what I'd rather do instead
But I love a clean, fresh, immaculate house. 

However, I don't want too much time obsessing over it.

The solution that I find work best for me is to break down the chores into weekly tasks. We all know that one cannot eat an elephant in one bite, and so I believe I shouldn't try to clean my whole house in half a day. Dividing chores into different days allows me to breathe easier while ensuring my house is not turning into Trevor Philips' in GTA 5.


The schedule is pretty straightforward. I start by scheduling the essential tasks that I have to do everyday. These are pretty simple chores to make sure everything is generally clean everyday, instead of just one area.

Then I assign different areas to be cleaned thoroughly in different days. I decided to tackle our living area thoroughly on Mondays, as we spent a bulk of our weekends hanging out there. I also considered about my daily schedule before assigning each area to each day. For example, I tend to spend the largest amount of time deep cleaning the kitchen, so I choose Wednesday since I typically am a bit more free.
I also schedule my monthly, quarterly and annual maintenance list to make sure everything is deep cleaned and refreshed. This is important for me as it will extend the longevity of my household items.

Since employing this roster system, I am more relaxed and only have to spend around 30 minutes each day decluttering my house instead of five long, torturous hours. Of course there are days when I just don't feel like doing it, and I'm sure you do too. But that's okay. As long as you keep up with the schedule next time, your house will always stay fresh and becomes a sanctuary you need. It is best if you can display the roster in a high traffic area in your house like the kitchen, so it is always easy for you to refer. I attach my schedule to the fridge, but I think I'm going to put them in a nice frame in the future.

To help you kick start having the roster system in your house, I have attached the schedule at the link provided  below for you to download and use if you find that it is what you need and it is functional for you. You can download the Microsoft Word format if you need to edit the schedule to your preference, or just simply use the PDF and print away.


I hope this post will inspire you to have a system to clean your house so you can spend more time doing what you love while still having a beautiful, tidy home.

 

WORK | Portly Journal Launch!




Guys,

We are launching The Portly Journal!

If you have followed me on Instagram, you might know that I own a stationery business called Portly Paperie. Late November last year, we launched our very first product called Portly Planner, a super comprehensive planner to help you achieve your goals. I'm all about achieving goals, but I also love jotting down ideas and taking notes.



I've always love a simple, luxe notebook that is compact enough to not bulk up my handbag, but with ample space for writing. We traveled miles to source the perfect leather for our notebooks, and made sure the inserts' papers match our buttery, thick, high quality ivory papers that our customers raved in our planners.


Each Portly Journal comes with three plain inserts, so you can jot down notes, ideas, draw graphics, and not be confined by lines. We are also thinking to produce dot grid inserts in near future, so if you are really interested to have them, let me know in the comment section!


I love, love these journals. They are in perfect size, elegant and really functional for me. If you are looking for a sleek and lux journal or notebook, you can take a look at these beauties at the website below. I thank you for your support and I hope you will fall in love with them as I do!